Nyuu~

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 17:49:51 GMT

"I can has journal kthxbai?" Seriously, you will not hear me speak like that very much but when I do I am never serious and/or incredibly hyped up on caffeine.

Neither of those happen too often, but when they do it's quite a sight to see...only my friends have seen me like that and I'm happy like that...my family would be weirded as hell about that...They never see me too completely serious, I usually say something to stop myself from getting too far into it and begin to laugh at how stupid I just was. Saves them from seeing me serious.

Not that it's frightening or anything but when they do get a glimpse of it, they look at me like I'm a completely different person and to be honest that is not the way I want to be viewed by my family. Hyped up on caffeine on the other hand, makes me practically uncontrollable. Nobody can calm me down and I'm like a cat that has just taken a large amount of catnip. That or the reverse happens and I become completely silent and revert back to my own little world and close out the world around me until I am spoken to by someone, and believe me this happens whenever I have caffeine no matter what time. Usually both scenarios too, just different amounts of both. Hyper one minute and in my own little world the next.

I know this must seem weird to people who are reading this...but I seriously feel like I can be myself around my friends much much more than I can around my own family...my family at this point knows less about me than my friends do. My friends have become my family. That's just how it is...and plus, sometimes when I try to act like myself my mother/brother tell me to stop, because I'm not "being myself". The thing is, I'm not being the side of me they've seen, the-less-of-a-hellraiser-more-like-a-hermit me that sits in my room on her computer most of the days is what they've seen. Meh, whatever. I'm sure a lot of people also have this same issue. Right?

Sasha,nyu~

Nyuu~